The Escape, The Journey: The Contemplation

It's hard to explain when you can't bare the strain
Shifting through the past times, trying to heal the pain
Still ill from the moment that you felt the rain,
Now the cold is all they see when you meet again
Damn.
Let me apologize to every one,
Each and every single person that I "spurned and run"
But isolation is the only thing that calms my soul
Cause when your friends are pieces of you, hard to find the whole.
(Truth)
Raised in solitary confinement
At the most, the TV's what kept me within alignment
Ask me who I am anymore: I just can't find him
Feeling like a stranger to me, and yet he's dying
While trying, to become the man of pure nobility
But lack of the ability is turning on me willingly
Lucifer's a ____ to me; I'm starting to hate chivalry
And all that I can say to thee....

- Welcome To The Contemplation

“I don’t know you who you are. I don’t know what you want. If you’re looking for a ransom, I can tell you, I don’t have money. But what I do have are a very particular set of skills acquired over a very long career in the shadows, skills that make me a nightmare for people like you. If you let my daughter go now, that will be the end of it. I will not look for you, I will not pursue you. But if you don’t,
I will look for you, I will find you. And I will kill you.”

One of the most meaningful quotes I've heard in a movie in awhile.

Is Mightier Than The Sword,

Then Allow My Words To Be The Sakabato.

(The Reverse-Blade Sword.)

- Welcome To The Contemplation

A River.

It Ebbs,

It Flows,

And The Third Thing They Never Tell You:

It's Always In Abundance.

There Will Always Be Love,

No Matter What Happens,

No Matter What You Do.

But You Can't Go Out Searching For Love.

You Have To Let It Come To You.

Because When It Does,

At First, It Will Be As Quiet As A Forest Stream,

But When It Hits You, It Will Contain The Power Of The Farthest Wave Of The Widest Ocean.

And Only Then,

Will You Truly Be Able To Appreciate Love.

- A Complilation of Mental Thoughts That I Never Wrote

Anime Music Videos are becoming YouTube's Graffiti art as YouTube administrators have been taking down AMV's on account of music copyrights.

Well......

As you can see, (or have yet to find out)

That guy, the one that made this AMV right here,

Thats me.*insert smiley face*

- Welcome To The [Rebellion?]

(For clearification, I'm still doing music regardless. I just wanted to see how far I can extend my creativity, you know? Try and test the limitations of one's own mind. Never a bad thing.)

- Welcome To The Contemplation

(Sort of both and neither of, you know?)

Almost everyday for awhile now I end up saying to myself I should just give up.

And I do mean almost everyday, if not everyday.


And usually, it's one thing or the other, just coming at me, that does it for me.
(And honestly, it isn't healthy at all.)

Recently, I've been getting over that, but now it's come to the point that anything could affect me and push me over the edge.

"To what?" is question you do not want the answer to, especially from someone with a vibrant and unpredictable imagination.

I spend everyday now, certain periods of time, in deep or random contemplation, with a musical and naturistic background to seperate myself from the world in order to enter my mind for the short periods of time that I'm given.

And honestly, it isn't healthy.

You know how the say "you learn when you lose"?

Let's say I've learned alot.

And I have.

For instance, people will look at you different depending on the general normality set by those higher up.

And depending on how well you preform dictates how high up, or down, they will look at you.

Also, I've learned something that every man will need to learn how to do.

I can tell by a person's tone of voice, even a subtle change, how they feel at the time and if it is attributed to something involving me solely, or if there's more to it than that.
(There's more but publicly mentioning it is not my style)

And there's more that I could mention, but going through all of it would most likely fuck with me more than it would with you.

...........come to think of it, I think there's more I could say.

And will have to say one of these days.

Today is just not that day.

Consider this my Release Therapy.


- Welcome To The Contemplation

What Would You Do?

Would You Atone For Past Sins?

Or Try To Justify Them?

Would You Enjoy The World As It Lasts?

Or Shed Tears For The Ending Of It?

Would You Reminisce On Past Events?

Or Focus On The Present Occurrence?

Would You Commit Atrocities Simply Because Tomorrow Has Been Promised Not To Come?

Or Would You Retain Your Integrity?

Would You Live Out Your Dreams?

Or Would You Simply Go Back To Sleep?

Just A Thought.

- Welcome To The Contemplation

"If spring can take the snow away, Can it melt away all our mistakes?"